Josiah Robert Trapani

Josiah Robert Trapani

12/27/2014

Josiah’s Story really starts with my first born. I’ll try to keep it short. We planned a homebirth but due to high BP transferred to a hospital on his due date. Two days later I was induced and he was born. I would call it a very traumatic birth due mostly to the treatment of the hospital staff and DRs only one nurse “saved the day” by her support and I feel the only reason we were able to have a vaginal delivery.

My second born was again transfer to a Dr care, much earlier, due to high BP. Induced at 39 weeks. Had a prolapsed cord and emergency C Then my 3^rd was a repeat C at 37 weeks due to even higher BP. I knew I needed to get my health in order before more kids. I found Trim Healthy Mama, lost 25lbs and got off my bp meds.

Then, we discovered we were expecting. I was so excited but also super unsure what to do. Plan another home birth? Plan a C-section? Try again with our past Dr for a VBAC? So I tried it all. LOL I went to See my past Dr. I discovered he had never done a VBAC. Even though he said he was willing, I had a hard time believing that it would really happen. I went back to my midwife. She was willing to work with us even though we were pretty sure we didn’t want to do it at home. However after a month or so she recommended we find a Dr and build a relationship with them. Since I had a history of High BP she would not be able to follow me the entire pregnancy and would most likely have to transfer to a DR care anyways.  About this time I also discovered ICAN. They were great with helping with all the questions I had and finding a Dr. willing to consider a VBAC2C. So here we started our adventure.

This pregnancy was the easiest of all of them. I wasn’t sick, I didn’t gain tons of weight, I felt great! My blood pressures stayed in good perimeters. Then came time for the Gestational Diabetes testing. It did not go well. Because of this, I was now considered high risk. With high BP and GD. However. I was able to keep all my numbers looking good with only diet. My BPs stayed down as well. Praise the LORD!!!!  All of the testing came with great outcomes. I had a little bout with preterm labor at 34wks. A 6 hour visit to the hospital stopped that.

Once I hit 38 weeks the Dr mentioned inducing by breaking my water. I wasn’t too excited about the idea. But we talked about maybe at the next appointment. Surprise, he had a family emergency out of town and wasn’t due back to after my due date. I was fine with that thinking I wouldn’t have to deal with the idea of induction. Well due to office mixup I was called back and they really wanted me to come in. so Christmas Eve we went to meet a new Dr. At first I did not like her at all. But I did have a really bad attitude about going in at all. I felt she pressured us to induce too. So finally I agreed to come in on Saturday. My mother in love would be here to help. That evening while driving home from the grocery store I heard “The Glorious Unfolding" by Stephen Curtis Chapman.

 Lay your head down tonight

Take a rest from the fight

Don’t try to figure it out

Just listen to what I’m whispering to your heart

‘Cause I know this is not

Anything like you thought

The story of your life was gonna be

And it feels like the end has started closing in on you

But it’s just not true

There’s so much of the story that’s still yet to unfold

And this is going to be a glorious unfolding

Just you wait and see and you will be amazed

You’ve just got to believe the story is so far from over

So hold on to every promise God has made to us

And watch this glorious unfolding

God’s plan from the start

For this world and your heart

Has been to show His glory and His grace

Forever revealing the depth and the beauty of

His unfailing Love

And the story has only begun

And this is going to be a glorious unfolding

Just you wait and see and you will be amazed

We’ve just got to believe the story is so far from over

So hold on to every promise God has made to us

And watch this glorious unfolding

We were made to run through fields of forever

Singing songs to our Savior and King

So let us remember this life we’re living

Is just the beginning of the beginning

Of this glorious unfolding

We will watch and see and we will be amazed

If we just keep on believing the story is so far from over

And hold on to every promise God has made to us

We’ll see the glorious unfolding

What a Great reminder! I needed to Trust the Lord. He would work this all out for HIS glory. I needed to rest tonight (literally) and not worry. I needed to stop “fighting” what I felt I was being pressured into. I needed to stop trying to figure out what it would be like, what would happen. This was NOT the end of my story, just a new beginning. God knows this is not how I wanted my births to go, but our story was not done. Praise the LORD, it was not done! I listened to that song over and over that evening. 

The day after Christmas I tried acupuncture. I’m not sure if it helped with labor, but it DID help to relax, refocus, and to talk to someone I felt was “on my side” of things. Then December 27, 2014 at 8AM we were there for induction. Everyone was so kind. After visiting with the Dr more I really liked her. (I think my dislike before had more to do with my bad attitude) She seemed much more supportive of my VBAC2C than I had originally thought.

Things really started happening about noon. They didn’t really want me up again my blood pressures were going up as the pain increased. Due to lack of being able to get up (which means I was in a TON of pain) and to help lower my blood pressures. I asked for an epidural. :-( it only worked on one half! I think that made it worse. I could move even less and still in pain. My blood pressures dropped right away. After two tries they finally got it to work but now I really couldn’t move, not one tiny bit! Not at all like I remember.  At about 3:45 the Dr came in and checked and I was complete! I could tell from her smile that nothing was stopping us now!

The nurse was going to start me with pushing then call the dr when things got close, lol one contraction of pushing and she called the dr. two contractions later of pushing Josiah was here! The nurse held a mirror for me and I got to watch my first birth! Amazing! I got to hold him right away. I got to watch Dad cut the cord.  The Dr also took time to show us the placenta and some of it’s amazing features.

One funny, the nurse and dr played a prank on the next on call dr by not entering things in the computer till we were completely delivered. So he was thinking he would have to come in for the delivery at 5.

We spent a couple hours with Josiah before they did his bath and checks. Such a change! There were lots of things that were not my “perfect” birth, but being willing to give in little things got so many more big things. If “We will watch and see and we will be amazed If we just keep on believing the story is so far from over and hold on to every promise God has made to us We’ll see the glorious unfolding”